Well, it’s official. I’m finally too busy for blogs. I’ve stopped tumblr-ing a lot, and I almost completely stopped on here. The only consistent social network I have going for me, is facebook. Which even then has gone to shit…
Update: Law school has been kicking my ass… Especially my property law class. Stopped talking to Bucky, Dr. Rabbit, and Caro within the first 2 days of school starting. Why? To liberate myself, and to get away from people who don’t have the same goals or in the same point in life as I am… It was kind of liberating to be free and focus on myself. Too bad that didn’t last long… I decided to use tindr to get to know people in the area.
And I met a girl who for the record makes me feel more than just that ticklish feeling of moths- or the pretty ones flutter like awkward flying turtles inside of me. Given, that it’s only been a week since we started chatting on tindr, we exchanged numbers and even added each other on Facebook. If anyone knows me, it’s that I don’t trust anyone to give my number to just anyone. So why is she the exception? It all started out with talking about school. We both are 21, and also in grad school. Given, I’m in law school, she’s currently getting her doctorate in pharmacy. From there, we talked about a Garth Brooks concert back in Chicago that she was going to. From there, it was Maze Runner… and that’s when I asked her if she wanted to go see it. I was somewhat serious, but also shy because I kind of saw us actually going out.
“So… What happened?”you may be thinking….
Well, it was there that she asked for my number and since then we’ve been chatting. It’s a full week that we have been talking tonight. I’ve learned that she’s amazing in math, very outgoing, somewhat nerdy, extremely shy, never been out with anyone or knows how to flirt, and that she needs me to know that she likes me a lot. When she said that last night, I thought “That’s very definitive language… Need…” So I thought about that until 3 am when I fell asleep. I woke up hours later for class still thinking “Need… and I haven’t been able to get my mind off of her in the past 120 hours. Maybe that need is already fulfilled?”
Our date is on the 27th… so 10 more days. Can I survive solely on texting her while slowly falling for every new detail about her? I really can’t wait… yet I’m nervous about hurting her since not only am I her first date with a girl. I’m her first date in general and basically a mentor into the gay world. So I really don’t want to fuck it up and end up hurting her, and also not making myself vulnerable to being hurt too.
Did I mention that property class will be the death of me?