I survived 4/5 midterms with average/ below average grades in most of my classes. I have one more midterm tomorrow, and might I say FUCK FUCK FUCK! It’s the one class that I’m extremely lost in. I just hope that the midterm in there just might be a bit easier than the things I’ve been looking at in there.
Updates… So last weekend, my parents came up to see me in Mock Trial. It was my first time competing in what feels like ages, but it’s only been 6 ish months. My phone went off in trial, and afterwards I checked to see who dared to text me.
It was Brooklyn. She texted “You have mock trial today, right? Good luck!”
I was actually a bit flabbergasted… It was the event I invited her to see me in, and since then we hardly spoke at all, and then that? I sent a quick response saying thanks. It wasn’t the last time I talk to her that day…
My parents arrived during the second trial, and they saw me “pretend” to be a lesbian attorney on trial for murder. Funny how that is partially true- the lesbian part, not the being under suspicion of murder. And even then I still identify with bisexual. Anyway, we went out for dinner and a movie… My mom and I saw The Judge, and then as I was driving back to my apartment, she had an attack… It was there my mom dropped the news about requiring dialysis or a kidney transplant.
It was right in that instant that my world crashed after just managing to stay afloat for so long to at least get through midterms.
I quickly did the most research I could, and then I texted Brooklyn being formal and only sticking to medical terms. I didn’t want to explain why I was asking about CKD, or anything and she just gave me the info and then we stopped talking.
Fast forward almost a week later to yesterday. I decided to finally ask my advisor to meet with me about the accelerated program. When I was walking into the office area, I chatted with the assistant dean and the secretary. They were so friendly and asked about how I’m adjusting, which I said I’m acclimating okay but I just have a lot going on outside of school. The dean asked about it, and I told her about my mom. She said she wanted to meet with me for moral support and to shoot her an email, and I said I’ll send her an email after my midterm. Then a 2L came out, and we started chatting. He’s a very intriguing character… Let’s call him Mo. Mo is blind. Not saying that he’s not able to do anything, but it intrigues me how well he’s doing in law school. We got on the topic of religion and about his sight. He said something during our discussion that really made me think… I stated that he must have a guardian angel protecting him when a bomb exploded on him, and damaging his eyes forever. He said that why is it luck- that wouldn’t death be something setting him free instead of living strangely… It was at that moment my advisor came out looking for me after her phone interview.
I told him I’d email him once I got back last night (and I did). Once in the advisor’s office, we talked about the accelerated program and then we got on the topic of stress. She mentioned that everyone in law school goes through a crisis… and so when I ended of breaking down about the news of my mom, she said “I think this just might be your crisis. We’ll get through it”
Last night, Mo and I emailed about our hobbies and reincarnation. He suggested we should talk more over coffee, and so I agreed and now we have a coffee date this Friday… I told Shawn since we still text everyday, and he definetely made me laugh with his line of questioning in texts.
Shawn: Male or female?
Shawn: OH DAMN! Switching it up.
Me: Congrats… I couldn’t keep a straight face on just now in class.
Shawn: Which class are you in?
Me: My second to worst one- Torts.