I am away from wordpress for a month and a half and everything has changed.
Anyway, life is hectic. Today is the last day I have to myself before becoming a full fledged law student since class is at 9am tomorrow morning. I also live in grand rapids now… And this is the first time I am away from my family, and it’s hard on them, me, and even my dog whose apparently been crying…
Things have changed a lot… Caro for one thing, changed from being the shy bisexual girl to a very open bi girl looking for another body building girl… Which that’s definitely not me, despite my weight loss of 25 pounds since the last time I wrote. And I’ve come to terms that we’ll just be really good friends despite having a lot in common, and finding her somewhat attractive (i say that because I’m not into the bodybuilder type).
There was a girl at the bank back at home that I finally decided to come out to, and also called her cute- Let’s call her Bucky (since he favorite actor is Sebastian Stan from Captain America 2). Sadly, she seemed interested in going out for coffee this week… But there’s a problem… I’m about 3 hours away (180 miles as another estimate). So here I am, living in a place that I know nothing or anyone in when I have a potential future girl back at home who is losing interest, and fast.
Don’t you just love how life fucks with you? I have been telling Nicole how I got the cute girl’s number at the bank since May… And yet I was too shy to talk to her until the week before I left, and decided to chase after Caro, whom I had a feeling was unattainable since I first developed a small attraction to her back in February. So I guess I really screwed up there. But at the same time, I’m glad I didn’t start any relationships because I’ll need all the time and devotion I have to studies and not someone else.
Sigh… I sometimes hate prioritizing things correctly.